The last time..

There’s this one person who really knows me well, more than my family. She knows when I’m happy or sad. If I’m not in the mood to talk or simply, If i don’t like a person. She will do anything for me, she did everything for me. For almost 3 years of my life spent with her, she really made me feel so special, she made me feel that I am worth with everything I have, family & friends. She was a blessing to me, she is a blessing. I know I made the biggest mistake in my life, to let this go, to let her GO. I know she’s hurting right now, but she really don’t know how much I’m hurting right now because I hurt her. I hurt her so many times, and yet she’s still with me. She stayed. But right now I don’t know where else to go without her. Because of my fucking stupidity, we became miserable, I ruined it with my own hands. No one knows the whole story, but I’m all blaming it to myself. I wish you were still here in my bed, cuddling like we used to do. I will miss everything about you, us. We are the perfect couple, not that perfect.. THAT perfect relationship that everyone wants to have. Ganto nga ba? Hindi ko na alam :(( Maybe because we had a great bond. We were like, sisters (sometimes), best friends, buddies, partners and most we were lovers. Kaya nga tumagal tayo diba? Pero alam ko this is not what forever looks like. Diba sabi natin forever tayo? Alam ko nagkamali ako, I admit and I’m very sorry. Kung pwede lang akong mamatay pagkatapos nung nagsinungaling ako, namatay na ko para di ka na nahihirapan ng ganito. :(( I just wanted you to know na ikaw lang talaga, totoo yung text ko sayo. But I don’t know what happened to me.. To us.. Lagi ko nga iniisip na, ikaw yung taong mahal na mahal ko, buong buhay ko umikot sayo, pero anong nangyare? Bakit ko nagawa yun. :(( I’ll miss everything, me & you, together. The things we do, like eat most of the time, watch movies, yung pinaka ultimate na bonding natin eh yung mag aaway, kakain, make up after fighting.. Hay.. :(( Yung cuddle moment natin. I’ll miss everything. Sana katulad na lang ng dati, kahit ako na lang yung patay na patay sayo. Sabi mo nga ang hirap, ang hirap hirap na mag tiwala. I’ll miss every little thing. That smile, eyes, lips, laugh and your singing voice, cheeky face and feet ;( everything. I will miss you, your surprises, yung lagi mong paghatid sakin kahit gabing gabi na, pang aaway mo, and yung lagi mo ko sinasabi na maganda ako kahit hindi naman, you’re such a big ass bias! But I love it. Thank you for all the wonderful memories. Siguro hindi na madadagdagan yun dahil sa ginawa ko :( Siguro nga hanggang dito na lang tayo. I just hope na someday, makahanap ka nang totoong magmamahal sayo, magpapasaya sayo, pero alam ko naman sagot dyan bakit ko pa ba sinasabi. Someday, one day.

I will still love you everytime i wake up and sleep.. :(