She was the best in me.. She is my everything.. :(

I don't know what will happen now.. All i know is we will part ways because of the stupidity that i have done.. All of my lies has now payed off. :(( this girl is the best thing that ever happened to me. She understands all of my actions, whether bad or right.. Whether stupid or just true.. Everything in me she accepted... My bad habits.. My bad mood shifting.. My imperfections.. But i took it all for granted.. What a shame.. I had her at her best.. Yet i let go of what i have.. I let my selfishness go in our way. In my way.. All was i wanted was to have a good time.. With her the most.. But also with my friends.. So there starts my mistakes.. I have to lie about everything so that she will be pleased.. I dontknow why i did that.. Yes im happy.. But just for that moment.. At theend of the day, all i can feel was guilt.. But the lies kept on growing that i cannot control it.. Like it was controlling me... What a shame.. I am a stupid person who took things for granted just because she is selfish.. ;(